It doesn't have to be New Years Eve for us to build new resolutions. In fact, we can build our resolutions each and everyday because each new day is full of surprises and experiences. Besides, we never know what awaits within each new day. The phrase of saying "goodbye to the old and hello to the new," is a phrase that is applicable to all areas of our life. That is including love itself. It wasn't too long ago before I thought I had found the love of my life. In fact, the conversations of marriage were starting to arise and I was getting excited, nervous and felt those butterflies in my stomach each and every day. However, to my surprise, life had something different in store for me. It wasn't until one Friday afternoon where I had to say goodbye to all my dreams and wishes I had with this person.
He scared me. He was someone I didn't know nor did I think he would ever be. He was someone who within a week became a stranger to me. I knew at that very moment that I couldn't stay by his side anymore. It reached a point where I didn't know who I was anymore. He no longer met my expectations nor my standards. I didn't know anything at that moment but if there was one thing I was certain about was that I wanted to feel safe and not be with him anymore. My hate towards him turned into anger which then turned into disappointment. He was my everything for more than a year, he was the person I thought I wanted to be with for the rest of my life. Except that as mentioned, life had other plans for me.
After being in this toxic relationship for some time, I decided to take time for me and have the best relationship with no one else but myself. At the end of the day, it is me who always had me, it is me who I will always be in a relationship with and that is the person I wanted to be with and take the time to know. I wanted to know who Ana was, what was it that she loved to do, what her interests were, how can she grow to be the best version of herself. I wanted this, and so I did just that. A few months have gone by and my resolutions that I had this past New Years have changed in comparison to now. Now, I have set new resolutions that allow me to grow as a person, as a daughter, as a sister, as a future coach and as a future Doctor. The many things I have learned have opened my eyes to many opportunities for which I am fulfilling to living the best version of myself and being stronger than ever. This all started the day I chose to say GOODBYE to the old and HELLO to the new. I am happier than I ever was. If anyone were to ask me, was it easy? My response would be NO. Was it painful? My response would be YES.
Was it worth it? My response would be WITHOUT A DOUBT!
You are only limited to whatever you tell yourself you are limited to. You have the potential to be the best person you can be when you start loving yourself and start doing the things you love to do!
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